I feel bad that I'm happy

I know that's a weird statement that "I feel bad that I'm happy".  Why?  Because I am happy my Sister In Law has left back home but almost kind of feel bad because of it.  She did help us out a lot while she was here with the kiddo and house cleaning but honestly it was really hard to have her here.  I started to feel like I was crowded all the time at home.  We have a small house and having three adults and two kids was tough. 

I was able to find a new daycare for little one, and honestly they are cheaper than what we were paying his Sister.  So really we'll be saving about $24.00 a month.  We are still paying for her cell phone and although it would be nice to get rid of it I'm not going to argue about it with the man.  That is really up to him.  He does know we are paying for it and asked about it last night but again, I'm not going to bug about the $30/month we pay.  It's not worth the fight.  Could we use that money elsewhere?  Of course, but I'm sure it's better to just pay it than deal with "drama". 

Let's talk about my weight loss or lack of weight loss.  I haven't really been doing much lately, well besides walking during the day.  I just haven't felt motivated to exercise.  I started drinking Body by Vi shakes, my friends promotes these shakes, but I'm not too enthused about drinking these.  I don't know why I can't seem to get motivated right now but it's been really hard.  I think it's been really nice to have my house back after the SIL situation that I just like having time to myself in my kitchen again and just having the house be mine again.  I know it's probably weird to be happy about not having her here anymore considering she took care of little one, cooked and cleaned.  It is just better now.

Blogging is Therapy

Is it funny that I find this blog almost cathartic and a sort of therapy?  I had vented about my SIL, (who currently  lives with us to help take care of our two year old), about the fact that she pissed me off yesterday.  Honestly, I am so glad I had the opportunity to share my feelings here with no judgement.  I learned that we all have situations that are not ideal and that we can vent about them but we can't let them get us down.  We have to deal with them head on and move on. I realize this is not easy when you are dealing with family but it does not mean you have to lie down and take crap too. I love Chuy and I love my SIL but in order to allow these relationships to stay intact it is up to me to create solutions that help us all.

Here is my plan:

1. Secure another individual (not related) to assist with daycare
2. Be prepared to not like what is currently going on but learn to be open and communicate for the sake of our family.
3. Do not let other people into our relationship or allow them to get into our relationship.
4. Be appreciativee of SIL's help and support and tell her so.
5. Include her and solicit her feedback in selecting daycare, she's been responsible for this for sometime she will have some insight we might not.
6. Enjoy my home and family again.

This is just a plan that will hopefully allow enough emotional maturity to get things resolved and back to good.